I'm fourteen years old (yes, I realize that to a lot of people, I shouldn't be worrying about how much I weigh). However, I am about 5'0" and 160 pounds.
In summer, I weighed myself and I was...about 135 pounds. Just imagine - I've gained so much weight in just a few months. My mother says I've gained twenty pounds in two months, but I don't believe it. She claims that I'm in denial, but, I haven't seen a change in myself, weight wise. Maybe I'm just so out of it that I've expected to be this size...?
I know that I need to start exercising and eating right, but...sometimes I see something I want - for example, a chocolate bar. How do you tell yourself not to eat it?
A couple of months ago, I went on a fast for forty days. That is to say, I did not have junk food of any kind - not even a piece of gum. I don't know what happened to that drive I had. But, it's gone.
How do you motivate yourself?
I just...I don't know if I believe in myself. I don't know if I believe that I can lose forty pounds and be at a healthy weight for my age and height. I need to believe, but I just...can't.
My ultimate goal is to lose forty pounds by July 1st.
Any advice, tips and kind words greatly appreciated. :)